When its over.

Ive reached a point where I am unable to look back.
I look at the last 2 years and only one thing remains perminent.
And its not him.
I cant tell if what im doing is going to end me up in a place i cannot avoid hurting people.
but im pretty sure Im going to continue hurting someone until the tie is cut.
its pretty much down hill now.
no matter what end we start from.
this isnt right.
I know that I cannot do this on my own.
and I hope to god I wont have to.
I need to be stable,
and I need to just break free.
I love my baby girl.
i will do whatever it takes to make things good for her.
but i have to break it all first.
while i have time
while she cannot be effected by it yet.
My heart is in another place.
and I cannot take it back now.



-Diamond